Raincoat or Umbrella?

Today was elongated day. Got up early, rushed for leaving early to avoid traffic but ended up in unfortunate flat tyre. Cribbed a lot about my tough luck and waited, waited agitatedly for puncture repair. It was raining cats and dogs by the time I got to office. I really upset the apple cart by getting irritated. I was dry, thanks to my car but I was carrying neither a raincoat nor an umbrella. Though the parking is within striking distance from office, it was like distance lends enchantment to the view in the heavy rains. I had two options, one is to run like a wind and complete the distance and the other was to wait for shower to stop. I was in two minds, first option would have got me into the office but would have left me drenched and the other option would have caused me to miss my urgent meeting scheduled in the first hour. Confused, thought a lot and decided, option one sounded adventurous. There were lot of guys who were wearing their raincoats and were heading straight to the office.  I was about to start the tight race, I heard a voice from behind, “Excuse me, I have got an umbrella, you can come with me”. It left me surprised; a simple guy with a small umbrella offered me a lift. I told him, “Brother, it is better to go ahead coz if I join you; both of us will be half wet”. A quick reply, “I do not mind, I agree that both of us will be wet but we will not be drenched”. I joined him and reached office. Thanked him for his help and reached my desk.

A small but a kind favor from anon tossed my mind and made me think a lot. A question, what should be my existence like, a raincoat or an umbrella, changed my cognizance. And the answer I got from my inner soul, I do not want to become a raincoat in life. 

A well-known fact, Life is not easy and everyone is so busy chasing their own dreams that the others around are just like useless objects which do not mean anything. Everyone runs the obstacle race called life with a tagline, I need to be focused on my requirements; time is money and not to be spent in helping others. My family is on front burner, why do I care about anyone else as I am not a charity commissioner.

According to me, this is nothing but a raincoat mentality. Raincoat means an outer garment that has sleeves and covers the body from shoulder down made of a waterproof material. The definition itself claims that the raincoat is meant only for a single person. Even if I desire to help people around me, my raincoat mentality will not support me. Feeling about something is good but acting on what you feel is always the best response. Raincoat has become selfish, self-centered, self-interested, greedy, self-seeking, ungenerous and blah, blah, blah. It does not mean that we stop using the raincoat; it is just my way of looking at life. 

Now let’s look at an umbrella mentality. Being an umbrella means being generous and selfless. Though it is simply a canopy, a web definition also says that an umbrella means having the function of uniting a group of similar things.  See the definition itself brings so full of positive vibes. I have desire to help people around me and my umbrella mentality will push me to do so.

As raincoat is just a seasonal garment. You being a raincoat a.k a. being selfish will not put you in a commanding position always. Like a season ends, your good time might just turn into a bad phase with rotations of an earth.  This situation can be compared to my favorite movie, Gladiator, “The general who became a slave.” Ups and downs are inevitable and everyone has to face those as and when they come. Whatever goes up has to come down.  

An umbrella is not a seasonal weapon; it not only saves you from rains but also from burning sun. Being an umbrella though does not put you in commanding position but it at least puts you in a favorable position. Take a literal meaning of favorable; you can get favors from the world whom you helped when they were in need. My bad time has come but I do not have to worry as I have loads of people around me on whom I can count on.  This is a win-win situation, “The general who became a slave, the slave who became a gladiator.”

I am trying to define new meanings for these words. Next time you see any selfish person and want to address him in such a way that he will not understand, just call him a “Raincoat”;) and a kind, selfless person can be referred as an “Umbrella”.

Today I am seldom random

Blazing sunlight randomly jumped my darkroom, started peeping through the curtains of loom.
Melodious dream was broken at random; I was the king of wealthy United Kingdom.

Lazy and random were movements of legs, body was haphazardly coming out of blankets.
Slow and desultory were twists and turns, shook my body and made all overturns.

Headache of random night out made me suffer, wholly dizzy due to hangover of head banger.
Randomly woke up at an early hour, gathered all my energy to gain all required power.

Green random soap and a mangled towel placed on a hanger, the ugly potty seat with a broken tumbler.
Randomly chilled was hot water of the shower, it felt like big fat crushing road roller.

Lacerated underpants and wrinkled random dressing, the socks and sneakers was arbitrary pairing.
Greasy random comb and wax gel for dude hair styling, falling short of time as college is calling.

Unwilling though random request for a lift, kind gesture by a passerby who was strangely sweet.
Random moped with puffy stuffy seat, boring talks help to give time a beat. 

Undecided and random entry through the gates, I was anxiously looking for my friends.
Unwanted and purposeless texts to pals, it is time to hit few new random gals.

Disinterested and random look at the classroom walls, I made a cool entry towards canteen stalls.
Rotten and damaged were wooden tables, bland breakfast and unfiltered coffees with few individuals.

Lots of idle talks with unknown random chatter, and pull small contribution to make payment of biller.
“Sorry, no change” words from yokelish cashier, we were not the ones who had cash in meager.

Plenty photocopies of random notes, spot discussions about internals and externals.
Indiscriminate worry about clearing the papers, phew! The exam dates are not yet out, long time for the finals.

We still have the random time for studies, willy-nilly promises to self and taking chill pill with childhood buddies.
A smoke played as best stress busters, aimless long drive to make me feel like I was the thrusters.

Stray visits to friends and messmate; understand whether they are in same random mental case.
Maundering everywhere and random Hi Bye, sighting the sunset to say Sun a goodbye.

Day’s over in tandem and completely random, time to welcome night in wisdom.
Every night was way very much so freedom,   dinner & drinks were totally random.

This was the time which was truly random, I felt like the world was my kingdom.
Life was away from never-ending boredom, time used fly completely random.

Today is the day where I am far from random; I am feeling like a used crappy condom.
Every worry is like an intense fuckdom, which can’t be solved just by random.

I thoroughly miss being random, life has become perfectly nonrandom.
I lost my stardom, Today I am seldom random……

Listening to what you like

Guys, wana share something damn cool, I have a got a skill to keep the pinnas of the ears closed for a longer span. No, I am not nuts...You gotta believe me. Well, it’s not very fancy skill to show off and sometimes embarrassing when kids around ask me to do it repeatedly just like a window.  

But mind it, anything which is god gifted has got its own vantages. I can close my sensory receptor whenever I don’t want to listen to any crap. Isn’t that amazing!!! Actually it doesn’t allow me from receiving unwanted sound waves (: it just softens the loud voice. My way of looking at it is “Mitigating the impact”.

What if we could have had an ability to listen to what we choose to hear, perceive, and comprehend. All good things can be received and all bad things can be bounced back to the evil transmitter, just out of this world isn’t it? Oh lord, I don’t want to attend any boring lectures, don’t want to attend any extra tuitions, don’t want to hear the motivational speeches from dear ones, no gossips and nothing unwanted. But what I would like to hear is, me being awarded as the best student for full attendance, being referred as topper in the tuitions, being called as the best performer in the exams and being respected as a benchmark for others. Only good things flowing around, no electronegative current passing.

I hate turning a deaf ear to something as its simply cheating. Hearing something and pretending that you haven’t heard it, is a lie. A bystander of a murder does not have a choice of not seeing it or rather avoiding being a witness. If he pretends that he hasn’t seen anything is simply a white lie.

Well, listening to what you like is not physically possible as it is not in our hands to evade few things. But certainly, we can change the way we perceive them. Let’s make it simple, when you decode a positive meaning out of any message delivered to you, you have got a choice to select either positive or negative message out of it. Take any damn example, it will have two meanings. You devil :) don’t think I am talking about double meanings. You are fired means the negative view is I am screwed up and the positive view is huh!! I am out of this mess; I have better prospects outside this burrow.

Don’t let your mind or heart decide what you need to listen. Let your ears filter it in such a manner that everything that goes inside you is electropositive. It’s a victory of yours by letting the mind and heart win.

Shit of Peace

You guys must have heard the term ‘Shit of Peace’, or it may have entered your mind from nowhere like it has happened with me. Its evening, I am on my way back home for peace. Heavy traffic is my best pal when I am driving the car all alone. It’s my best friend and won’t let me be myself as its scared of my loneliness.  A genuine plea pops in my head, I WANT PEACE. Peace for myself.

What is peace? As I understand, peace is absence of strain. Strain is a status where mind is not in a mood to intake anything and is ready as highly explosive to rock the world with panic. The “P’ word is very soothing and just like a Nile river in middle of desert.

Where the need for peace does arises from? Mankind is such a starving breed that it will never be happy whatsoever the scene is. We are always wishful for more and that’s our basic nature. Now, as I decide that I need extra, I need to be on my toes to find more. In the hunt of finding more, I am starching myself to the core of limits. Mercy, I am exhausted now, feeling drained out and frazzled. This is the stage where a person realizes that I have moved far from where I was and I am nervous, things around me are too loud. I want to live in harmony; I need the ‘P’ word.  The greatest dream on any living being has arrived, the peace is born.

How to earn peace? You got to be kidding; I am not Christ to get peace whenever I wish to. Every person around is appealing for peace but do we really know, what is peace. I doubt it.  At least I have never met the almighty Mr. Peace.

Where does it lead us? Now that I have realized that I have messed up in solving the mystery of life, I am looking for peace. You can’t focus on daily activities and loose the sleeps in the night. Idea to achieve peace is all over you. Now, that you are the genius animal, one fine day you realize that something that you have been looking for has hit you. A promotion or a new car or a weeklong holiday or anything out of your million points wish list. The ‘P’ word is here, but let me tell you that even before you realize that it’s here the same peace takes place of a headache and you move on for next peace point.

This is a vicious circle of peace and does not ever let you enjoy the current peace. Life ends but our wish for peace stays with our soul. That’s why everyone at the funeral says “may your soul rest in peace”.

The conclusion, peace is nothing but a shit. To live happy make peace with your life and better stay away from ‘Shit of Peace’.

Life needs suspensions

If you go by the definition, suspension word isn’t very groovy. It means the system of springs and other devices that insulates the chassis of a vehicle from shocks transmitted through the wheels.

Just imagine similar mechanism in our life, isn’t it very fascinating? It may not be for a few who believe in accepting the life as it comes. I am not here to survive; I believe in living with eternal happiness. Come’ on guys, we know it well that nothing comes for free!!! Life is like a vehicle without suspension which travels from places to places, ups and downs, rains and fogs, mud and soil. It always runs on auto pilot mode where you are just a placeholder possessing the steering wheel. We don’t have an option to stop the vehicle and chill out for a fraction of micro-second. Ah, we do have a dream break when the Sun is on 12 hour interval where you maunder around things you love. Rooster uncle says “Kukudooooo”, wake up; it’s time to start the journey.

Aw, can’t I just extend my stay with this good patch for a while. No, you can’t. Everybody has to keep revolving between good and bad patches alternatively or continuously. Ouch, I just hit a pothole; I am hurt, in pain and about to panic. Hey, stay calm and keep driving. This endless pain and sorrow makes us feel that my eternal life ended ephemerally. We don’t have a luxury to avail the interval during which there is a temporary suspension of bad phase. Remember suspension from college? It always meant a short holiday for me ☺. What if I could have had a vehicle with suspension? Like I said, good patches are difficult to last too long and bad patches are hard to pass through, a vehicle with springs and dampers can at least control spring motions of life. It can also speed up the journey and smoothen the hard times.  I don’t want to suffer heat of the Sun; I would rather love to sunbathe.

Huh, life is to be lived and not to be passed. It is to be lived and not to be suspended ☺ I need a suspension; does anyone know where can I find one?

Mind is a Kind ghost...

One fine evening, I was sitting in office tied up with routine stuff, a thought crossed my mind, humming around me, that God just whispered something. This may sound crazy to most of you, but yes I felt it.

I always think that there are multiple living things around us which we can't see with naked eyes, just like your mind inside you..The most kind Ghost in the world is your mind.

I divide ME into three important things body, mind and heart. Body is just the executor of orders declared after the war between heart aka God and mind aka Ghost. Like it’s always said you are good at heart but your mind leads you to wrong things. But I think, it is partially true that all the ghosts are not bad :) I feel, God is also imperfect and makes mistakes which we accept as destiny or mere luck. There are lot things around us which will make us realize the truth of mind being a kind ghost and heart being a callous god.

I think, there is just a ghost of a chance that all logical decisions are made by mind and all emotional decisions are made by heart. When you drop off your kid to school for the first time, you leave him in wear and tear condition with swollen eyes. Your heart says this not something I love doing. Cut the crap and let me take him home and comfort him but your mind says no it is important to lay a foundation for his life.

Here comes the question; who is kind and who is callous. It’s your ghost mind who plays smooth and your heart plays harsh.  Being practical doesn't mean that you are unkind. Being emotional for a while turns out to be a disaster when it goes big.